ex-lover!!

this entry is about my ex-lover....a story from few years ago....
nonton drama tv3 td...
terimbas kembali memori lame...
bile ada stu ayt ni terucap dr mulut si mak heroin...

"kite ni.....sbg seorg perempuan.....patut hidup ngan org yg cintai kite...n bukn org yg kite cintai sepenuh hati kite..pdhal..org tu....cintanye xsehebat cinta kite.."

n yesss!!!this situation used to happen to me once.....ak pernah reject cinta seorg lelaki slps 4 tahun kenali hati budinya...n alasan......ak bosan!!!

dye seorg lelaki baik.....cintai ak sepenuh hati nye...
tp mgkin cinta ak xsehebat cintanye terhadapku...
hingga ak sggup reject cinta dye...
n terus putuskn hubungan...
walau ak tau...
3 years from d incident....until now...
he is still waiting for me..
still!!!
camne ak tau?????
cuz my mom n dad keep talking bout him..
n his msg is in my mom's phone!!!
do u know wut i mean???
dye berhubung dgn parent ak..
to b exact!!!korek rhsia ak melalu mak ayh ak!!!!
camne ak bley se sure ni????
bile mak ak ckp.....
lelaki tu tgh tggu ak..
n mak ak sendiri pon da ad calon tuk bakal suami ak in case i dun have any......

tp hati ak ni..
rase cam xmampu lg nk terima dye..
ntahla...
mgkin...cinta ni bkn tuk dye...
definitely...
but how if....
ill nvr fall in love again?????
xkn ak nk men andartu smpai tua kot???
berjanggut???beruban gtu???
oh noooO!!!!!!
xsanggup!!!!!!
tp apakah mknenye ak harus trime org yg cintai ak ni????
sdgkn cinta yg ak cari pon xku jumpa.....